Medical Doctors Nutritionists Urologists Or anyone who has used a penis pump i need help im in crisis?

It wasn't your eating that caused damage. It's your using a penis pump and jelqing. You probably damaged the tissue in your penis. It's sad, but a lot of people who try penis enlarging techniques often end up with less than they started. You're still fairly young, so there's a good chance that you will heal over time. You're lucky that you're still a bit larger than average now. Years of the kind of physical torture you described will take time to recover from. There's a possibility that there is scar tissue that will never return to normal. If you're gentle with yourself in future years you might find that you will recover some of what you lost.